I have no idea

I did not know that my sister was going to have such a beautiful cake made for my sons party.  It made me cry.

the party went well! he had fun!

phone is still lost.

A while before a post.

Im getting worse about posting and I am sorry!!

i have no idea what is going on in my life thus far.  THe guy i was dating hasnt spoken to me in over a month and wont annswer anyform of communication i try.  Short of going to his house, becasue his parents scare me...

Lil guy's bday is monday, trying not to cry over it.
We are having his birhtday party today and not a lot of people can come like I invited.  I hope he doesnt mind just having the family because it seems that is all that is coming with the exception of my long time friend who has a kik only a month older than him.  :D

we made cookies and bought cake and are grilling so this will be fun! it is solar system themed.  Kid knos so much about the planets

Been working out with my friend.

Lil guy is reading. like actual sentences!  sounding the words out and all

My phone has been lost into the void, I have not been able to find it.

we had a fish infected with ich so we had to clean the whole tank and pretty much all the fish died.  It was heart breaking.  Umbreon and his twin are still alive and so is ONE of my sisters angel fish.  and two small red gourmis and two big gourmis

Starwars Group

another successful night at lightsaber club :D

oh how i wish i could convey the amazing feeling it is to hold the hilt of a powerful weapon in your hand and be able to mold the minds of the future.

We had a great time last night, starting with pizza and pop, our first snack night :D
Lightsaber Club is one of the best things i have ever joined!!  it is such a blast to have such great friends around even if it is only once a week.

Last night was great because we had a LOT of people stop by and join us in our dueling.  I gave out all of the club cards that I had with me.

My favorite group that stopped by was a family.  A girl and her two brothers and their mom and dad.  We stopped and let them play with the sabers and that girl just kicked butt!!  she was amazing at it!!

As we were wrapping up for the night, a group of kids I taught at school before they graduated came by and joined us.  I had the pleasure of being able to help them learn some attacking and defending moves.

I hope that this continues as we go on in the year and in the future.

I may just have to make a blog for the group ;p

Club- Starwars!!

Hey guys!! I see a lot of you following sweet prince on his blog, but hey i have one too lol.

I started going to a club (link if you have a facebook!)  Salina Kansas StarWars Fans, Lightsaber Dueling, Collectors and Cosplay
It is so awesome!!
i am having so much fun with these guys!!!

We meet every weekend (Sunday nights) at the local park and everyone brings a saber, but there are some there for those who have not got one at the moment!!
I dont have one (yet)  but i like learning with what is provided!!
Plus it is just so chill.  No pressure to do anything and we all have a collective mindset *meaning we all like about the same things :D


I shall see if i can get pictures to upload maybe a video too!! the video is of The Fearless Leader doing his thing

so this is me (blue)  and one of the other members striking a pose

things

baby got a fish for doing good.  He chose a dragon fish.  i hope that it does okay.  I honestly do not know anything about them.  I have actually been doing research on them and they seem fairly easy to take care of.  He was just so excited to have it happen!

Update:  its been since july 11 and the dragon fish is doin okay.  We cleaned it just like the directions said to and he died like four hours later.  Kiddo is takin  it well.  He just really wants another one.

Update: Our filter needed to be fixed.  So we bought a new one.  it is cleaning things much better.

I have been going to the gym much more frequently.  It helps when you have a friend to motivate you!! She is super knowledgeable on the equipment and we always map out a plan when we are going. I have been trying very hard to keep up with her at her pace but it is clear i am not as ready for it!! I could probably out do her on weights but everything else, I think she is far superior to me.

My food eating has gotten better too.  It helps when things go the way you want them to and you can pay for better food.

School starts up again soon, and I am actually super ready for it!!  I hope so much that I can be in the same classes as i was last year, but I am actually good to do what ever they need me to do.

i am trying not to spend a lot of money on the new clothes coming into the store because I know i have enough and I just do not need more!  I just need to remember to do the laundry haha.

It Is not going so great on the romantic front.  I have been trying to talk to my guy, but he has not been talking.  He has gone into a sort of depression really and I try to get him out of the house and do things, but he doesnt.  He also has missed our group meetings two weeks in a row, but hey no biggie he can catch up if he ever pulls himself together.  

I joined a Star wars fan club group, and we do do lightsaber dueling!!  i am learning to duel with a lightsaber!!!!!!  Im actually pretty good at it too.  :D

Habits

I had not been to the gym regularly because of just random things. I started going again because I didnt like the way i was always tired and sluggish.  I just wanted to feel good about myself again.
I have a membership so i better use it.

The first night a friend went with me.  We just did some abs and a little light cardio to get our bodies reminded of what it feels like to work out.  The next night she worked late so i went alone.  I did legs. lots and lots of leg work.  Last night we went and did a warm up on the bikes, then alternated between abs and arms in a ten set rotation.

I am totally feeling it today, but it is so worth it!  I am feeling better.

Now i just need to make sure that my diet follows through as well (read that as DO NOT EAT AN ENTIRE PACK OF TWIZZLERS JES!!!)

I am also getting back into writing.  Which makes me feel good about myself when i can write something down from my own imagination lol

because, life

I feel very horrid for saying i will update more and then not.  Basically there is no app for my phone any more.  weirdness, so i have to go back to my own old laptop.  strange i know.  so anyways not a lot in my life right now except that my kid got bumped from his care program because I would not be in work for 30 hours or longer.  So i have to find a new daycare and IT IS HARD!  anyways, I also got pushed out of the Daycare help program because I didnt have a daycare.  like give me a break people.  I work like anywhere between 16 and 25 hours a week.
School is going to start at the beginning of august.
I am sure my kid has autism among other things, and I am learning to accept it.  It is not that I am horrified because I am not, It is just becoming exhausting.  I love my child.  I will do anything for my kid. We are going to get him tested this coming week.  Example though, today I made a mistake and had told kiddo we were doin tooth doctor translation dentist.  but we got there and it was closed.  So i made a mistake and he was crying becuase he couldnt see the tooth doctor.  he tried to open the door. He would not stop talking about it.  He cried for thirty minutes he wouldnt go to the pet store he did not want any of his calm down toys.  it wasnt until my sister mentioned the park that he calmed down enough to talk to us.

So my bf is doin okay he lost his job so he is lookin for a new one right now.  he moved in with his parents and is not don as great as he is letting the world think.  He is being distant but its gettin better now that he is feeling more confident about finding a job.  I miss talkin to him daily, especially when i was helping him pack up his apartment and clean.  I would be around daily.

Work is goin great. Im loving it :D  We have a new shipment of chokers comin in and im in love.

Sorry this is longer than usual.

Just because

I went to see Power Rangers with my boyfriend.  I told you previously that we are geeks.
We went to a late night showing to accommodate his night schedule.
He liked it and yes, i think i did too but i could have waited to see it on dvd.
Billy will always be my first "boyfriend"  because when you are seven and you really like a character you marry them.  lol.   He was smart and an interesting character that often helped the plot along.  That was so true of this Billy.
Though there were surprising twists (no spoilers i promise) I still would have waited to see it on dvd.


 let me paint you a scene.

It was after midnight.  The sky was dark.  It was misty.  He walked me to my car.  We hugged and kissed.   We said goodnight.
I told him i loved him.

he said it back.

Yea I thought that it just came out, but i didnt mind saying it.  i also didnt mind hearing it from him.

Drabbles on my mind.

My mother cannot do much right now.  she had a hernia which she discovered she had on xmas eve. they did surgery last week and now there is her recovery period.  We have all really stepped up to the plate to help her and none of us realized how much she bent over and lifted before she couldnt.

example: playing with and picking up my kid.  He is getting big, has his 3year visit with the doctor coming up.  with a new doctor, which he met and said he liked because of his silly socks.  my child notices the strangest things.

David Bowie's 70th birthday was yesterday.  Tomorrow marks one year since he passed on.
I have some strange bug and I am not liking it, but weird it coincides with my down fall week because on the 12 i believe, Alan Rickman will have been gone for a year as well.

My sister is having her time and it is frustrating because if i had something to say about it, she wouldnt get to sleep all day.  If i were to do as she did yesterday, I would get yelled at, Wait, I did get yelled at.  By my mother and my child.
My mom has told me so much what to do lately that it has really ticked me off.  like she told me to go through his toys and books and get rid of stuff...but i did that last month to make way for his new toys that he would be getting.  plus i have a crap ton of them under my bed that he cant read yet but will soon.  He is three and a half guys and he is reading small words like cat, ball, fish, hat, and sounding out many others. He counts to forty five, he counts to fifteen in spanish, and I just dont know what im going to do with that kiddo :D

Well it is official, I am a girlfriend. :D  well we have been going out for a while but titles didnt really come.  But as we were in nebraska me my son and my sister, i was asked if i had any potential guys scoped out and as i text "him" he said "tell them you have a boyfriend"  i think i squealed and did a dance.  inwardly of course. Now, i have told others especially in my last blog he was my boyfriend, but this is coming from him himself :D
Speaking of Nebraska!!!  I drove there.  my sister "doesnt drive on the interstate"  and my mom was home on bed rest.  My dad stayed with her because she shouldnt be alone.  So in their new van we piled up.  Z with his movies, kat with her stuff and sleep, and me at the wheel with coffee and water and the radio.  I was jamming out!! i think im totally a rapper now...  or not lets just say it was fun to listen to the radio while everyone else did their thing.

2017

My 2017 has gone so great!  It started off New Years Eve when I went on a date with my boyfriend, to see the movie Assassin's Creed.  We both loved it.  Yea, I am a geek and I happen to enjoy that franchise, and also prince of persia, but thats besides the point.
We sat after the movie and just talked about it versus the game pros and cons and what we did and did not like.  It was just plain and simple, fun.

We kissed.  I liked it.  later he text me and told me happy new year which made me smile.  I like having him in my life.
I have started off going strong at the gym!  YAY.

downers: child support from december is STILL not in.