Look guys, I have been doing my workouts! I have taken my meds! I am doing well in my buisness!!
I am trying to be happy :D For Christmas a friend got me a happiness journal and i use it daily. Last week I was so down, and I didnt, but i am on super on the way to being better all around.
I am going out with some friends to do an escape room next week and I am excited about it. I hope it is super fun!
Thursday, January 16, 2020
Friday, January 10, 2020
It is the new year!
I literally have no resolutions. I have a routine that I try to adhere to.
I have to remember that a lot of my readers (thanks!) may not know me personally.
Let me refresh though. Right now I am a para. I love my job. I am a very cool para I guess. The kids seem to like me. I sell Herbalife products to help stay healthy I use them as well. I love to read and write, and I go to the gym daily.
For some reason, this last week I have been really down. I do not know what it its. I haven't wanted to be myself. I have had several days where I want to just stay in bed and just stay alone. I have tried to stay myself. I have been looking on the positive of things, but I just don't feel up to it. Even after the gym. I have been avoiding interacting with people. Coworkers and friends at pickup have been noticing and it means a lot that they are noticing. I appreciate it guys. I know I have depression and anxiety. I really just need to remember to take my medications. It is okay guys. (update: a good friend of mine who has been checking in daily- has told me to put my medications on my bedside table, and THAT has been an improvement)!!
Lets get down and dirty. I am 30 years old. I am a single mother. My son has special needs (Severe combined ADHD and high functioning autism also with sensory processing disorder). I make friends with my students very easily.
okay my thoughts are all over the place so bear with me.
I spent new years with a friend of 20 years. He and I just had a good comfortable early morning. We had a beer (well he had a few, not me) and talked about life. We lay in bed, no nothing happened yall, that is the glorious part of being such good friends- we can be comfortable around each other. Anyway, we were talking about how blanket forts solve problems momentarily and that is what is nice sometimes to just escape and be a kid. Maybe that is part of my problem, I have been in love with him my entire life, (we have been friends 20 years guys that is pretty much my whole life) and we never do anything more. Just lay in bed and talk. TAking complete comfort and solace in each others' company.
I am trying to find a second job so that when summer comes, I am ready :D
I have been eating lunch with my student most days because 1 i am off the clock and 2 i like to listen to his stories about gaming. I started to follow him on his gaming channel and he has been playing a few games that I am intrigued with. We talk and commentate on the game as he plays it so it is pretty cool.
I like this guy, and I thought he liked me but he said he doesnt want anything, just to be chill and be friends. No big deal. I have been around him a lot and flirty, and he flirts back. His son and my son are good friends, and I handle his son really well. He is pretty defiant and even likes to hit and kick. Because of my training as a para I know how to redirect and handle the blow ups. So the guy says I inspire him to learn more and to be better, when in fact, he is inspiring me to open up to teachers and ask more important questions about my son's day.
Thank you so much for following along. I know that I have more to say but I cant concentrate. My focus is all over the place.
Just know I am alive and well.
I have to remember that a lot of my readers (thanks!) may not know me personally.
Let me refresh though. Right now I am a para. I love my job. I am a very cool para I guess. The kids seem to like me. I sell Herbalife products to help stay healthy I use them as well. I love to read and write, and I go to the gym daily.
For some reason, this last week I have been really down. I do not know what it its. I haven't wanted to be myself. I have had several days where I want to just stay in bed and just stay alone. I have tried to stay myself. I have been looking on the positive of things, but I just don't feel up to it. Even after the gym. I have been avoiding interacting with people. Coworkers and friends at pickup have been noticing and it means a lot that they are noticing. I appreciate it guys. I know I have depression and anxiety. I really just need to remember to take my medications. It is okay guys. (update: a good friend of mine who has been checking in daily- has told me to put my medications on my bedside table, and THAT has been an improvement)!!
Lets get down and dirty. I am 30 years old. I am a single mother. My son has special needs (Severe combined ADHD and high functioning autism also with sensory processing disorder). I make friends with my students very easily.
okay my thoughts are all over the place so bear with me.
I spent new years with a friend of 20 years. He and I just had a good comfortable early morning. We had a beer (well he had a few, not me) and talked about life. We lay in bed, no nothing happened yall, that is the glorious part of being such good friends- we can be comfortable around each other. Anyway, we were talking about how blanket forts solve problems momentarily and that is what is nice sometimes to just escape and be a kid. Maybe that is part of my problem, I have been in love with him my entire life, (we have been friends 20 years guys that is pretty much my whole life) and we never do anything more. Just lay in bed and talk. TAking complete comfort and solace in each others' company.
I am trying to find a second job so that when summer comes, I am ready :D
I have been eating lunch with my student most days because 1 i am off the clock and 2 i like to listen to his stories about gaming. I started to follow him on his gaming channel and he has been playing a few games that I am intrigued with. We talk and commentate on the game as he plays it so it is pretty cool.
I like this guy, and I thought he liked me but he said he doesnt want anything, just to be chill and be friends. No big deal. I have been around him a lot and flirty, and he flirts back. His son and my son are good friends, and I handle his son really well. He is pretty defiant and even likes to hit and kick. Because of my training as a para I know how to redirect and handle the blow ups. So the guy says I inspire him to learn more and to be better, when in fact, he is inspiring me to open up to teachers and ask more important questions about my son's day.
Thank you so much for following along. I know that I have more to say but I cant concentrate. My focus is all over the place.
Just know I am alive and well.
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