I have been struggling with whether or not I should even tell you guys this, but about two weeks ago I reconnected with a person that I should not have.
Here is the run down. We dated in high school, and a little bit after. Then we dated a few years ago. He broke up with me after a while and I for a weird reason, still loved him, like a lot. I found him on a dating app and of course SWIPE RIGHT!! I still talk with his mother, so I told her about it, presenting it in a haha guess what just happened way. She encouraged me to talk to him through text and gave me his number.
Lets fast forward, to where I told him that it was me and he started telling me that I was the source of all his problems. I needed to commit suicide and I needed to die. Yup. He went on and on for hours about how i was a pox on earth and we all would live better without me and how i was fat and ugly and unlovable. It is important to note here i did not retaliate, I did not respond, I let him talk it out. Then he threatened to kill me. I called the police. He was arrested. He bailed out the next morning.
I can never eat at my favorite restaurant again because he is a manager there :(
Ok that being said, I made plans to go to homecoming at my college for three days. But i had to cancel them because my parents didnt realize their convention was the same weekend. No biggie. I was sad but I can always go again next year. That is how i got over that. I took z to the zoo, a friend came down and paid for it as a birthday gift for the both of us, and all he wanted to see were the ostriches! We did look at other animals briefly but he wanted the ostriches.
Z and I tie-dyed early in the morning so that by night he would be able to see the items before I put them in the wash. It was fun.
I went out with some friends this weekend and DRAMA happened. I didnt drink because someone has to be the driver, but I regret dragging some better friends of mine into this mess. I did discover that I do have serious feelings for one of my friends, but we talked about it late at night and decided it best to just be friends an let things happen naturally if they do. I should mention that it has been 20 years since we have been friends.
I have a debate tournament today so I am looking to show the kids how to dress appropriately and act accordingly. The only thing I did not do was wear dress shoes, knowing that I would be doing a lot of walking around.
I am reinventing myself! I have my business that I am starting to actually get a hold on! I am also getting more healthy!! I let myself slide a lot since my wrist went out, but I am getting back in it!! I love helping people.
Stay beautiful friends!!
