what moms know that fathers do not...

Remember how fun and cool it was to sit around the table and have a family meal? How about the family game nights that were competitive and full of laugher?

Garrett and i are drifting. there is no real other way to put that except that we dont see eye to eye any longer.  He comes home from work and he will sit on his ipad or computer and play his own games in his own world.

Zypher and i love to play and talk to him too.  I feel like im competing with his gadgets and what nots.  I also feel like im being left in the dust as he continues further in his career and i am being mommy.  Dont get me wrong, z is progressing quickly and wonderfully other than not gaining weight :/

the other night (i started this on the 2nd) i checked out a movie i have been DYING to see since it was announced.  Veggie Tales In Space The Fennel Frontier.  It was chalk full of David Bowie, Star Wars, Star Trek, Dr. Who, Back to the Future (and MANY MANY MORE!) references.  Z Loved the sininging and i loved seeing it!  I thought it would be a good family film.  Guess what, Someone was missing.  He was playing shooter games in the basement.

I became very cold and distant toward him for it.  when he asked, i replied that he is part of this family too and needs to act like it.  he of course huffed off.
he didnt see how z liked it. he didnt see how funny he thought it was. he missed that. GArrett misses a lot of zyphers life, and then gets annoyed or upset when i buy more camera storage cards so i can document these things for him to see later.

To the point, Garrett watched the movie with us before we turned it back in and he groaned the whole time.  He was not liking the references or the inaccuracies.  But Zypher didnt care.  I didnt care.
As a mom, i know z likes what ever we do right now. and if we like this movie, so does he.  He sees mommy and daddy together in the same room doing the same thing and it makes sense to him.

Garrett doesnt know that because he doesnt stick around.  there are days i feel like im a single mother and im just taking my baby daddy's money.